When we do not speak, 
it makes me appreciate you more.
My heart feels heavy,
all that is left are memories, 
which leave me unsure. 


Did it actually happen the way I thought it did,
now it's in the past I have to let go.
Holding onto moments of laughter and joy,
even this grasp can hinder the flow.

Anticipate a sense, all senses that exist are that of now,  
for those feelings exists in this moment.
Accumulate ease through out the day: Tao. 
Eventually this will be the only state. 

Exist.  
With purpose. 
Breathe

© Krishdga   6.5.17

Connected

I think about the times that I said I wanted to be out. Where I wanted to start living my life the truth that I know. I remember being in my mums car and she would drive me to school, the same mundane routine. Everyday feeling like I am not making a difference.

Now I have the power to change that.

I am in no ones control. I am not obliged to do anything for anyone. I just do it because I want to. The life that you want to live, will only start when you be that person you want to be and the transformation begins when you face that which you fear.

Soon a few years from now you will be able to reflect on who you were and now are and feel the same but different.

It cannot be explained, for if it is explained it means it cannot be experienced, if it is not experienced then it cannot be known, if it is not known then it will not be said. If it is not said it will just be done.

Understand

The one thing as humans we want or need is to be understood. The worst thing we may think that could happen to us is for someone to mistake our intentions or believe what we have done as ‘bad’ or ‘negative’. These such words do exist but for its own purpose.

To feel humiliated allows us to break free from our ego. Sometimes it is not the ‘correct’ moment to speak the truth about ones own experience. However to recognise the importance of that experience in yourself and to validate it in your own history is important. When learning different types of love and accepting the unknown there can only be growth from that. It may not be clear now but in this moment if you feel loving enough towards creating a blissful experience then choose love instead of feeling misunderstood.

Misunderstood:  missing –> undo –> under –> – stood –>stand.

Standing under someone we are able to be at ground level of what they are experiencing.

There are reasons as to why people think differently and we must not fall into the trap of treating others how they treat us. “Treat others how YOU/WE/I want to be treated.”

To be a silent observer of your mind and ego can help you stay grounded and move forward in your own journey. It is not that something is bad, but it may have felt bitter. The bitterness we have control of.

The bitter sweet ending is a choice.

Choose it in the moment.